My Mushroom Plans Were Cancelled And Now I'm Sad

Last night I was looking forward to taking mushrooms. 

The reason why is because I was hoping to have them help me cope with some personal issues I've been having.

According to the New York Times:

Two weeks after Sakuda’s psilocybin session, Grob readministered the depression and anxiety assessments. Over all among his subjects, he found that their scores on the anxiety scale at one and three months after treatment “demonstrated a sustained reduction in anxiety,” the researchers wrote in The Archives of General Psychiatry. They also found that their subjects’ scores on the Beck Depression Inventory dropped significantly at the six-month follow-up.

Something my friends wouldn't expect about me is I go through periods of deep depression. I've taught myself to ride it out, but I'd prefer to get to the bottom of what's really going on.

Last night it was supposed to happen. But due to my friends having other plans (and some of the preferring not to use mushrooms), it didn't happen. I could've done them alone, but I'd prefer to do them with good company.

Let me back up a bit.

 Mushrooms are easy to get in the Gili's. ( Image source .)

Mushrooms are easy to get in the Gili's. (Image source.)

I'm currently living and working from the Gili Islands. If you're unaware, shrooms are abundant here. Just about every beach bar sells them from their freezer.

Since I'm here, I figured, "Why not try them?" 

But like I said, it didn't happen.

I ended up walking around and watching a movie — Foreigner with Jackie Chan — on the beach instead.

It was nice, but not what I planned for the night. 

Today I'm taking a fast boat back to Bali, so mushrooms are a no go.

Maybe next time.

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